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I hurt, I hurt and I burned and Bailey had been pulled there. And I had used the relic to send them there and I was going to play heroine but it went sideways with the Trolls and then the rest happened as the damned Cytorakkians started up with Megan and her bitch creature from the Lifestream.
Yes my main targets, Bailey was a bonus, Lyr fucked it us by rallying people.
But I tried to kill the eternal thing.
It’s a wonder they don’t recognize he’s a bard but the kind on the battlefield like a Skald… storyteller, tavern speaker, standard bearer.
If he was alive in the Army of light he’d be one of those with the flags.
Add in the two channeler metas.
And the mages and guardians.
Worse was jumping back to the new Bailey… awake, aware, with her but not but it’s enough that they’re friends and I missed the battle with aliens?
Tarlok hit us? How?
I couldn’t get more info than anyone else who’s a guest and the rumours of it being Bailey and the Memphis people’s enemies.
No this was something different.
Even without opening myself to being felt or potentially felt I could feel tech magic and taint and something else Eternal but…
I leave.
I don’t sign out as a guest but out on the away list and have it as errands. And I do go out and do some visible busy work before getting foraging gear from the Kingsrangers and end my daylight hours looking for herbs and with my training I know if they’re close.
And I create a spiderhole out in the middle of nowhere by summoning an earth spirit to make the cave. I built a transport pattern there.
Then go back.
Once I’m accounted for in my quarters I set my alarms and answer safeguards, put up my magical works do not disturb. Set some actual brews to start and then jump to my pattern.
Out of palace range and patrols I jump to Ashendar’s City Sanctum.
Oh yes, he built a city he and some minions he poached from others as the Forsaken tended to use up minions and betray them once done. That whole killing the subcontractors thing. Ashendar collected the discarded. Rebuilt lives and powers.
Dark sided to be sure, but such is life.
Our creatures move out of my way, most get back to work and I head inside where they cannot go.
They are behind the barrier.
Kill a Forsaken and they return to their Old one behind the barrier. It’s even stronger now but I am in his sanctuary, and I have his blood running through me.
I use the blood amber he made.
Fire up the power circles and….use the summons as a commune to…
~Father…I concede, I need your counsel. I thought that I could steal a march and learn things that would make me able to unbind him, but things have changed and there are powers at play I don’t understand.~
He’s not asleep, none of the truly strong Forsaken souls are, the real failures are digested in their dreams or remade in their chaos and trapped in there.
Accepting my failure is submission and I do and in our link he starts teaching me training, me fusing with me as he re-kanjis my code to pull his and it’s revelation after revelation as he tears me down, looks at all of the things in my life but things around me and I start to see the moves and plays holes filled in by his lore as I start understanding what the other powers can do and cast.
Ashendar.
Kyu looking…looking but in truth he is half high elven and half Valrukar or Dragon keeper. Not like Deathserpent but they are the Chaos touched elves that were descended from the same species as The Druid and Crone.
A sort of distant cousin to Everlasting.
Once masters of the Oni race.
When he’s inside I see things, feel everything change as he…agrees with Gwen Summerhall and he even mentally referred to her as the Starmother.
I can never get him back.
I can never go back, and certain beings only exist as that version of themselves once.
I rage.
I rage and blinding white hot super nova and point singularity burn it all and go full Imperium Keth over it.
And Mourning more, and having a nervous breakdown until I feel him inside my spark again, inside my soul and I just let him until it goes numb and blank.
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Her encounters with things she wasn’t prepared for broke my “Daughter” and she had shown me so much of the other side that it was easy enough to commune, then teach her and as I did I “hacked” her mind and while I couldn’t leave, leave the barrier I instead integrated into her mind.
Growing inside of her on this side all by her own power and hand.
So when she broke we stayed put in Thornhome in the TDC function and what started as me was what put her mind, our mind back together but I’m more me than her.
Though my daughter has so many things going for her that she seems to have missed out on as much as her mother Kachina did.
Yes He’s still in there, my caster, I’m more like a clone he wrote into his child.
But I’m very much still me him in a lot of ways.
The Sylvan’s in this reality haven’t cleaned out The Darklands or even the Hammer and she’s taken advantage of this by re-opening resources such as this.
Thornhome is a secret base, a lost lordship of land with old overgrown roses that are green magic touched and ages old large enough to be trees and hedges and other presentations and orchards as well as old vineyards.
I stole it from Bane.
It’s old and barely touched now, but below it’s a kobold crafted series of tunnels and caves and mines that leads down to a small underground township…well dark race supplied war base of anti-crown forces.
She gathered forces to work and train here, a start but as I look through her notes it was more to infiltrate other forsaken and dark forces more than her having an attack unit.
It’ll do.
There’s a lot to do and to learn.
Summerhall…Something had her spooked.
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Date: 2024-12-29 03:03 am (UTC)Since the battle and retrieval of souls in the Dark Place I have been... recovering. It was hard there, hard in ways I still didn't understand and yet... there was good there too.
But not long after we went to rest, not long after Megan was taken care of for her deeds and put to bed to rest, I felt the link between Her and I...
Break?
Shift... change... but also break, break before something dark happened.
I cried out at the pain of it, my mind, my 'power', even my soul feeling like it was on fire, a fire that would consume me and my sense of... of existence was gone...
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Date: 2024-12-29 03:20 am (UTC)Like this my need of good is fleeting and I do pay the ones I have well and I get their loyalty out of petty jealousy of their neighbours and kin.
Lots to do but in all of that I was not expecting to feel the power backlash and shock of this other being.
I use a jump post and once clear I reach out.
~I'm sorry but it's safer for both of us.~
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Date: 2024-12-29 04:03 am (UTC)Something... reached out...
I don't understand... safer?
I...
No.
Something... has her, something... dark, more than. Evil.
Like...
I... cannot let it have her. She...
Who... is this... what are they doing?
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Date: 2024-12-29 04:32 am (UTC)While I'm out I jump to a leyline and find a nice place to meditate and listen to the whispers on the lines.
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Date: 2024-12-29 05:47 am (UTC)There is a pull; like... it's like the bond I had with her.
But not. It's weaker... it's... different...
I hurt... but...
I have to find out, to see what... who... this is...
**There was some... time, but they did show. A whisp of energy, of power, as if they were hesitant to commit more than that to seeking you out.**
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Date: 2024-12-29 06:31 am (UTC)She sitting very oddly folded inside of a drawing in the dirt that creates ley line current flows like she put stones in the stream so the water rushes over her in a better way.
Her senses... she was smelling, listening to life with actual patience and meditation and she smiles as she sees you.
"Even now I feel this, you're very interesting, what are you?"
"I'm called Dara now."
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Date: 2024-12-29 01:46 pm (UTC)"You... are her, but not her? You... are...?"
I don't... understand.
I look around, taking things in, then look at her. "Your eyes remind me of... of the Lifestream..."
I blink.
"What am I... I am... me."
I frown and stare at her, hard.
"Dara... what happened to you?"
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Date: 2024-12-29 02:42 pm (UTC)"My father took what was shattered, and added his own....code."
and I push the impression of cosmic coding. "This."
"I'm still healing though but given our past I wanted to clear things up it's the honnourable thing to do."
"My eyes are this colour from the Lifestream, my daughter didn't know the waters wash you out, some even just melt back into the life eventually. She/I used magic to hide it."
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Date: 2024-12-29 06:26 pm (UTC)"Your Father... one of the Fallen..."
I frown and when she shows me the 'coding' I...
"I understand now. By adding his own, the link that tied us when you sought to devour me... was broken. Was... was that your doing or... something else?"
I can't help but frown though. "You... did not seem so interested in honor before. Have you been broken and changed so much?"
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Date: 2024-12-29 06:56 pm (UTC)I share not just Forsaken, but a stalking obsessive parent that raised me with Skinwalkers posing as my family.
"Yes he or I did that as I'm mostly a clone of his mind added to her pieces father has innate different values and standards, so...I have a sense of honor."
"And you, you're a Guardian... not like Hawke but a defender of the Life stream, an antibody in the blood of the ALL yes?"
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Date: 2024-12-29 07:56 pm (UTC)I frown at what she shows me but... "I think I understand."
But what she says, being a... 'clone' of his mind, that concerns me.
"So... are you like him, Forsaken too?" To me it would be a given, but honor... what little I understand of it, would that offset the Darkness of her parents?
I do shake my head at her question though. "No, no I am not a Guardian. Guardians have not been in the Lifestream for a very, very long time." I sigh. "The Curse of... Emotions grew in me: Curiosity mostly. Because of that, I sought you out. After that encounter, I was cast out of the Lifestream."
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Date: 2024-12-30 08:40 am (UTC)"So if certain emotions like curiousity are bad what is your kinds role in the cosmic ecology then? A culture as I know it seems unlikely."
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Date: 2024-12-30 01:08 pm (UTC)"I admit it is... worrisome still..."
"Our role... is to Watch, and be part of the Lifestream. If we were meant to be more, others than I may know it. Perhaps Kass, who is the last True Guardian we had of the Lifestream." I don't know where the caution, the wariness comes from, it is strange to be sure to feel like I cannot be truthful or answer her questions as fully as I might have, even before. I don't understand it myself...
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Date: 2024-12-30 04:20 pm (UTC)I look at then nodding.
"It sounds like you might be an early warning to life living there."
"Watching usually has a purpose."
"Kass...oh...her, yes I remember her. Hmm the dark one was smart to unmake Cygnus between her and Starmother he'd eventually lose. Likely to Gwen? I thing that is here Summerhall name... she'd do as Starleopards do and when he'd be busy trying to battle Kass's freestyle, she'd uncloah as her jaws broke his neck and spark."
I project my image/feelings and Kass joining Cass was by design and crazy as Kass as Guardian likely joined her to gain that odds defying Cavanaugh quality... I can see her being hard to fight, very powers improv and him having a hard enough time Gew could easilly do that kill, like that.
"Worse thing is he knew he'd fail, but now he can analyze his creation, he's likely stored or filed, so we might see other versions or upgrades."
"You should mention that to your other friends just in case."
"I am not ready to meet them yet."
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Date: 2024-12-31 01:18 am (UTC)... oh.
Oh... I do not like... I do not like what she says because it sounds... problematic.
"I will pass it on. They will need to know this, yes."
I study her a few moments and then, "Why were you so obsessed with Seeker's Child?" Perhaps like this she will answer and... that answer may give over more insight.
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Date: 2024-12-31 11:11 pm (UTC)"Summers not Summerhall."
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Date: 2025-01-01 12:05 am (UTC)I tilt my head as she explains and... to me, that makes so much sense.
And yet, "I think I understand... but also see the problem because he is still Tyger, remembering or not, it is just... he was not triggered to remember." I think on it and... oddly, I think I see the... ebb, the flow, of the Bailey/Tyger thing.
"So... she wanted a Bailey that would never remember?" I look at Dara then. "And she tried to... force this, yes?"
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Date: 2025-01-01 12:56 am (UTC)"Me... now... it's more a theory, that any indication it's possible and it's very futile to try and alter set events centering a person without... killing them."
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Date: 2025-01-01 01:42 am (UTC)I frown slightly because that is, well, rude. But... then again I can see the line of her thinking, her 'theory'.
"It... could have been possible, yes, if Bailey were not a Child of Seeker. But because he is, he will always become Tyger."
"Trying to alter that could kill him; it would at least result in him no longer being... the Bailey she would think would exist."
I study her then. "So... what will you do now that you are... repaired?"
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Date: 2025-01-01 05:28 am (UTC)"Wait out the changes if I can tell until I feel confident about being alive and free and as her as well in moving on."
"I'm as lost as you but I know the dimensional geography better."
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Date: 2025-01-01 06:51 am (UTC)"I think you know much more than I; what I know, I got second hand from Megan and while it is informative, it is still not experience."
I sigh softly. "But I will do what I must because this... here, Outside, is all I have."
I do give her a slight, soft smile. "It is good you are going to take time; smart of you, honestly." But then the smile fades. "What of him, your father? and what of this focus on Bailey? Is he a danger? Should I pass along that you are... no longer a threat to Bailey?"
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Date: 2025-01-01 07:30 am (UTC)"I've no intention of attempting that, the Red Witch might as well have died from her ambush by Cygnus."
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Date: 2025-01-01 10:31 am (UTC)I nod. "I will tell them, and inform Tyger/Bailey to be aware and beware."
I frown slightly. "How active is it likely your 'father' will be?"
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Date: 2025-01-01 04:04 pm (UTC)"Father is of the belief that if exposed in right does he gets immune to a certain extent while exploring it's endless depths and that he'll have power like the gods, like the first gods who gained it through them and rebellion."
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Date: 2025-01-01 10:56 pm (UTC)I don't know the names of these Old Ones though I do understand them as the Great Darkness of our past, and I frown slightly.
"Is your father trying to become a God? Or usurp power?"
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Date: 2025-01-01 11:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-01-01 11:43 pm (UTC)"This is... not good then. More I need to pass along to others. But I'm not sure there is any way to stop him, is there?"
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Date: 2025-01-02 12:44 am (UTC)I sigh with relief at that. "Then... warning will be enough."
I stare at her though and after a moment, extend my hand to her. "I think... this is the right gesture? I... am glad to have met you, Dara... glad my curiosity led me to follow you."
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Date: 2025-01-02 02:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-01-02 03:24 am (UTC)I nod and give her a smile. "I... am recovering from the fight and rescue in that place. I'm not sure when I will be recovered enough to be conscious but... I will pass on what you've told me."
"Keep safe, Dara."